Friday, November 20, 2009

This and That

I'm terrible.  I know.  No need to mention it.  I keep thinking to myself that I need to write an actual blog post, but I keep finding other things to do.  I don't know why.  Maybe I just feel like there's nothing really to say?  I don't know.  But, I'm sorry nonetheless.  Let's see...what's going on?

There's a lot of drama going on at work right now (one of the hazards of working with all women, I think).  It's seriously ridiculous.  It makes my shifts seem to go on forever and my days off go by in a flash.  I'm so not a fan. 

One of my favorite coworkers is going PRN (meaning she doesn't have an actual bid, she only works when they need her), and I'll miss seeing her a lot.  However, her leaving will, in theory, mean her bid will be open.  Here's where it gets tricky.  The long-term goal for our family is for me to stay home as much as possible to be with the children (well...child, right now).  We plan to be one of those freaky homeschooling families with all the kids (or maybe just one kid?)!  I'd love to go down to the 32 hour bid that my friend had, but it makes me nervous!  I mean, I currently make half our income, so the idea of so drastically reducing my hours freaks me out a little.  My mom will tell you that their finances never worked on paper, but it somehow always worked.  The problem is, I dig it when it works on paper, too! 

I know that this is what God wants from us, but it's so hard to make that step.  The devil, in all his wisdom, places things on my mind that I might not be able to do if I reduce my hours (or he brings up expenses all of a sudden as if to say, "See!  What would happen if you didn't work as much as you do now?!? huh?!?").  For example, my oven decides to breathe it's last breath, or my 18-55mm lens decides to stop auto-focusing for no reason at all, or it's Christmas-time, or I realize that I might someday want to have a house that wasn't built before there was indoor plumbing.  (Mama, if you're reading this, don't be offended about your house!  We love it!  I just aspire to someday have a bathroom that is too big to put a foot in the bathtub while on the toilet and washing your hands!)  Don't you just hate that crafty devil?  He's the worst.

So, anyway, that's a big thing on my mind right now.  My friend's bid hasn't even been posted, yet, so it may not be an issue at all.  Still...I'm a worrier.  I come by it honest.  I'd appreciate any prayer or real-world advice any of you could give me.  Perhaps one of you is rich and looking for a young family to adopt?  We're cute.  And awesome.  And I made a killer broccoli-cheese soup for supper.

On the infertility front, we're pretty much same old, same old.  I haven't been temping this cycle, because I get so tired of my temps looking super stupid as a result of working nights. (TMI Alert) But, mid-cycle, I always try to get us on an every-other-day schedule if at all possible.  I noticed some fertile cervical fluid the other day, and informed Nick to "think sexy thoughts" because I would be requiring his services when I was done in the shower.  lol  He said, "Uh...ok.  Let me change Asher's diaper and turn on WonderPets!"  I laughed and apologized that he had to deal with a broken wife who uses him for his sperm at odd times of day.  (Ok...I didn't actually say that last part aloud, but I thought it.)  Anyway, I haven't noticed any other signs, so we'll see if my body decided to actually do something right or not.  (TMI over)

We need to get our Christmas pictures taken so Nick can design our Christmas cards.  I think I'll have someone who I'd trust with my camera come over and take our picture by the Christmas tree after we put it up.  I'll be sure to post the pic and the final card design on here so you can see it.  (Completely off-topic, but why is James Pickens, Jr. from Grey's Anatomy doing a radio spot about getting your horses vaccinated?)

I think that's probably about it.  Congrats on making it to the end of this rambling post.


Nick November 20, 2009 at 9:56 PM  

If your hours decrease, I'll still be here. If you lost your job, I'd still be here. If we never have another child, I'll still be here. If James Pickens, Jr. never explains his odd connection with equine veterinary practices, I'll still be here.

More importantly, Jesus will still be here, and He makes all the difference.

On a different note, I could really go for some broccoli cheese soup right about now.

Anonymous November 21, 2009 at 10:17 AM  

Last year for our Christmas card we did us in our shoes. The outside of the card said, "May you be blessed this year with family, friends, good food" and in the inside, "While wearing your favorite pair of shoes". We got so many comments about the inventiveness of our card. And it wasn't limited to what shoes you wanted to wear as I wore my speedskates.

And since I am not a regular reader. Whoever Nick is... you are a good man. And I hope you got your broccoli cheese soup.

Stopping by for an ICLW visit...
No. 2: the unfair struggle (mfi, speedskating, nanowrimo)

Wishing 4 One November 21, 2009 at 1:16 PM  

Krystal, you are so cute! You are cute in your pics, cute in your writing and cute in your comment leaving!!!! I wish I was rich so you could make that yummy soup for us everyday, but i am not rich and live in Egypt as you know, kinda far from Ill. Anyway added you to my blog list cuase youre just so cute!!! Happy ICLW girl! Oh and you actually look like a younger version of a former co-worker who i just adored too!

Tracy November 21, 2009 at 2:20 PM  

Had to LOL at the 'think sexy thoughts'. Wishing you all the best with TTC.
Happy ICLW

nh November 21, 2009 at 2:31 PM  

I hate drama at work, and I hate having to take tough decisions. I hope that the right decisions become apparent to you!


LaToya November 21, 2009 at 5:39 PM  

I like this post. I struggle sometimes to make an actual post of substance on my blog. Life sometimes just gets the better of me.

I'm in the process of trying to figure out how I can homeschool my boys being a single parent. It will be tough but I have faith that all things will work out for my good.

jenicini November 21, 2009 at 6:11 PM  

Wow, you're going for the homeschooling?!?! No, I'm not a skeptic or anything, I am just always interested in why a family chooses it. That would be great if the job situation lined up now although I agree it's scary to take that leap! Mmmh. Broccoli and cheese soup...sounds good! :)

Mrs. Gamgee November 21, 2009 at 11:18 PM  

Mmmm broccoli cheese soup...

too bad we aren't rich ;)


Noelle November 22, 2009 at 12:27 AM  

I tell my husband those sorts of things too! He often feels like I just use him for his sperm. It is true! What can I say????

I found your blog because you had mentioned the song "While I'm Waiting" by John Waller, on someone else's blog. That was a great movie and a great song that I listen to often to get me through this.

Meta Megan November 22, 2009 at 10:01 AM  

I would adopt you for the soup and cuteness too! But I want to cut back on my hours too, so I don't think it will work out. Good luck with your ttc!


Nicole November 22, 2009 at 10:12 AM  

Hang in there...I know for sure what it is like to not have enough sense to get it all out in one post. My brain is all over the place these days.

YUM for soup. I love all kinds!

Happy ICLW!

Mommy In Waiting November 22, 2009 at 1:03 PM  

It was so neat to read your post! I come from a large family (I'm the oldest of 5). My Dad worked and my Mom stayed home and homeschooled all of us. It was really tough sometimes, I remember times when there was only $5 in the bank to get us through the rest of the week, but we always made it! Good for you for realizing what is important in life!

C November 22, 2009 at 1:33 PM  

Great blog! I look forward to reading more. Best of luck this cycle!

Rachel November 22, 2009 at 1:42 PM  

It's o.k to have a post that covers a lot! It makes it more interesting!


BURNS FAMILY November 22, 2009 at 2:50 PM  

I will definitely miss working with you as often and believe me it went into my decision process! I apologize for creating drama. :) Thank you for your kind words and hopefully we can see each other just outside of work now! I struggle with the same thing about worrying and enough money. I hope we both can find the right balance between work and family!

Miriam November 22, 2009 at 4:46 PM  

Good luck on the job front. It is hard sometimes to take that leap of faith. My recommendation is to always do some deep introspection and follow what your gut says.

MK November 22, 2009 at 6:41 PM  

My husband is used to me "requiring" him during my fertile time every cycle too. But somehow he never gets sick of it (wow, what a shocker - a guy who doesn't get sick of sex!). ;)

I saw that you're homeschooling and I think that's awesome! I'd like to as well if we ever get pregnant or adopt.
And we love the Lord as well. :)

Parenthood For Me November 22, 2009 at 8:28 PM  

Wonderpets is my saving grace as well. Happy ICLW

romancing_the_stone November 23, 2009 at 11:15 AM  

I loved your posting and I really loved Nick's reply. What a treasure to read. Shell ICLW

Anonymous November 25, 2009 at 1:30 AM  

Thanks for the visit.
Well, I am a huge advocate for staying at home. I believe you should do everything you can to be at home with your little one/ones. Our time with them is so short. However, I DO NOT judge when a mom has to work to help provide. I know that sometimes it can't be helped.
Just ask yourself, do you really HAVE to work? What could you cut from your expenses that you don't have to have? How can you cut back now to be able to stay at home in the future?
Good luck on this decision. I hope you find the answer that is right for you and your family.