Wednesday, June 30, 2010

My D+C went fine Monday morning.  I evidently "wanted to bleed," according to what my OB told my family when it was all over.  Monday and Tuesday weren't too bad, but today (TMI alert!) I've had killer cramps and have had to dispose of two pairs of underwear.  Lovely.  I'm going to push my 800mg of ibuprofen to every 6 hours as opposed to 8 and see how that goes for the cramps.  I'm also back to work tonight, tomorrow night and Friday night, so we'll see how that goes. 

I promise we'll eventually get back to "normal" on here...not that I'm really all that sure what that even looks like any more.

Thanks for all your prayers and thoughts throughout this rough time.  You're all the best.

Friday, June 25, 2010

D+C Scheduled

After much deliberation (and help from bloggy friends), we have decided to go ahead with the D+C.  It will be Monday morning at 11:30.  Quite frankly, I don't think I can handle the wait and not knowing when it might happen if I let it go naturally.  I feel like I need to get the actual miscarriage out of the way before I can fully grieve properly, know what I mean?  The last 24 hours has sucked severely.  I've cried more tears than I ever thought possible. 

I know many people are praying and thinking about us, and we truly appreciate it.  While part of us wishes we didn't have a million people to have to tell, the other part is happy to have so much support--both from people we know "in real life" and from blog friends we've never actually met.  We know the Lord is sovereign and holy, even if we can't see why this is all happening right now. 

Thanks for being there, guys.

Thursday, June 24, 2010


At some point between our last ultrasound and the one we had today, the baby stopped growing.  He/She only measured 7w5d and there was no heartbeat.  We are trying to decide whether to go ahead with a D+C or wait it out.

Saturday, June 19, 2010

Wherein I Apologize for Not Posting...

Really, my only excuse is lack of anything exciting to say. Mostly, my days go: nausea? Check! Tired? Check! Working or chasing an almost 3 year old? Check and check!

Basically, my life's pretty boring.

I have my first OB appointment this week, which we're pretty excited about. I'm hoping to get a glimpse of little blackberry again. I'm nervous about the whole pap smear thing. I mean, I've had them before, so that's not it. But a coworker of mine had a miscarriage at 9 weeks as a direct result of an over-zealous pap smearer. I'll probably go ahead with it, as that was probably a fluke, but it still makes me nervous. My question is: why do they even bother doing it when you know they won't do anything about an abnormal one while you're pregnant anyway? Seems strange.

My summer calendar is filling up like crazy! This coming week alone, I work 32 hours in 3 days, then have an OB appointment, then all 3 cats go to the vet (explain how I'm going to manage that?!), we have a surprise party to go to, a wedding rehearsal and a wedding Saturday afternoon followed by work that night! Ugh! No rest for the gestating, I guess.

Asher's birthday is coming up. We're getting him an easel and art supplies. I'm thinking of getting him an old school plastic swimming pool, too. One that won't pop like the one we got him last year, you know. We're having his party the 3rd, weather permitting. We're planning on going to the park to play with family in the morning and having cake and stuff before it gets terribly hot. Then, that evening? ECLIPSE, baby! Oh yeah!

Well, my fingers are cramping from typing this whole thing on my blackberry while Nick sleeps, so remind me to tell you about our upcoming meeting with Asher's mother. Ugh.

Sunday, June 6, 2010


Here's our little one!  The little circle on top is the yolk sac.  Baby's head is to the left.

We told people at church today, and they were all thrilled.  Then, we came out on FB.  It's all very exciting!

We've been talking to Asher about it, and he is adamant about wanting a sister.  He also said we should name her "Strawberry."  I don't think that's on the list.  haha

Thursday, June 3, 2010

7w3d Ultrasound

We have one perfect little bean!

He/She is measuring exactly 7w3d, which prompted my favorite ultrasound tech to say, "Do you always do everything so perfectly?"

We saw the perfect little heart flickering away at 157bpm.

I didn't even cry, which is surprising.  I think if I'd have gotten to actually HEAR the heartbeat, I would have.

Then, they told me I could stop my prometrium suppositories (I'm going to finish out the few I have left) and metformin and go see my regular OB.  However, Dr.S can't get me in until the 24th.  Oh well!  I'll be 10w3d by then!

I promise I'll post pictures when I can.  I'm working the next couple of nights, so it will probably be the weekend before I can get to it!  There's really not a lot to see anyway...just a little blob.  haha

I'm so glad all is well in there!