Thursday, August 27, 2009

"Bad Mommy"

Do you ever have those days where you're convinced you're a terrible mother? Where you say to yourself, "Wow! I hope no one shows up right now and sees how awful I am!" Please tell me I'm not the only one!

Today is one of those days. Have I done anything terrible? No...not really. Has your child looked at you and said, "You're a bad mommy, mommy!" Not by any means! Has my mind been going a million miles an hour thinking of days when I didn't have a 2 year old climbing all over me? Or putting everything in his mouth? Or screaming bloody murder because I won't let him do any number of things that would cause danger to himself or others? Yes! My mind has been going there!

Now, could I find something to blame it on? Of course! Hormones? Yep! Infertility medications? You know it! Stress? Sure! Should I blame it on those things? Probably not.

See, there are some mornings where I just wake up and can tell it's going to be one of those days. Today was one of them. It would be interesting to see if having gone back to bed for a couple of hours would have changed it. But, alas, no such luck for the mother of a 2 year old. (A highly energetic two year old at that!) However, I have complete control over it. I could choose to be in a good mood, but I don't want to! I want to be in a bad mood...at least for a little while.

But, then, do you know what happens? I feed the 2 year old monster, and he decides to be generally charming and adorable. (Don't you hate that?!) He eats a whole bowl of corn and asks for more. He eats his hot dogs like a good little boy (despite rubbing the wiener water all over himself). He drinks his milk without demanding it be chocolate. You get the picture. On top of that, your sweet husband calls you on his lunch break and tells you he loves you and misses you. Then, you find yourself unwilling and unable to be in a bad mood! You realize that, soon, the charming and adorable monster will go down for a nap, and you'll have some much-needed down time...

...and, everything will look different in a few hours.

2 comments:

Nick August 27, 2009 at 1:12 PM  

You're not alone. There are many days when I feel like a bad mommy!

James September 21, 2009 at 8:32 PM  

I've got years and years of bad mommy on you...and somehow we all survive it...and sometimes discover that those days really didn't amount to as much in the grand scheme of things as we had feared. You're alright...you're alright...