Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Mandatory Break Cycle

Well, my left ovary strikes again.  Normally, it's sitting up stupidly high and I have to do all manner of stupid human tricks to enable them to see it on ultrasound.  In addition to that, today, the darn thing decided to be even more dumb.  I see it on the screen and manage to say, despite my position as a  human pretzel, "Is THAT a follicle?!  What is it doing there?!"  Yes, ladies and germs, I have a big, fat follicle on my left ovary.  The same ovary I ovulated out of last cycle.  It's not a corpus luteum, because it doesn't light up when they do their magical "light up my ovary like the 4th of July" thing.  The tech (who I hadn't met before.  Who knew there were techs there I hadn't met?!) didn't think it was a cyst either.  So, as I waited for the nurse to call me back for what would usually be my "let's up your follistim" talk, I texted Nick and told him they'd probably cancel it.

Sure enough, my favorite nurse and I talk and when the PA finally calls back, I hear her say that I should take a cycle off.  I thought I'd be more upset, but I'm ok.  The nurse put her hand on mine and said how sorry she was that this was happening.  I told her it was alright, I just wish I hadn't had to drive forever to hear it.  We went over the calendar and she told me when to try and time my next cycle to get in before their holiday hours get messed up in December.

Then comes the dilemma.  We had planned on this being our last cycle until January to save time and money during the holidays.  With 14 siblings, 2 brothers-in-law, 1 niece, and 6 parents (not to mention the 3 of us) to buy for, any money we can save is much appreciated.  So, I guess now we need to decide whether we'll try to do another cycle in November/December or not.  I had really hoped to be pregnant by the time Blackberry's due date came around, but it doesn't look like that will be happening. 

Boy, is January going to suck.

Anyone want to work for me for the entire month of January?


Alex October 19, 2010 at 6:02 PM  

Oh no! This sucks! I'm so sorry that this cycle got cancelled. Boy, that's just insult upon injury, isn't it! I'm so very sorry. I think you guys should try to do another cycle before the end of the year, if at all possible. But that's just my thoughts. Hugs to you, sweetie!

Anonymous October 19, 2010 at 6:12 PM  

Oh no! I am so sorry. My ovary does the same thing. I hate it when it hides. I have tried pushing hard in the area, holding my breath, drinking a lot of water, and not eating much before a scan. If it doesn't want to be seen it won't show.

Anonymous October 20, 2010 at 1:07 PM  

I'm sorry you got canceled, and that the left ovary doesn't want to cooperate. That really sucks. I hate that you're going through so much BS right now. You have to follow your own hearts/wallets for whether or not to try to cycle again before the end of the year, but I can tell you cycling during the holidays is hard and stressful.

Loz December 11, 2010 at 3:43 AM  

So we're a couple of months down the track and I hope things are working out alright